Having a lot of spare time gives me a lot of time to think. Thinking too hard about things can sometimes be bad, and the thing I think about most is my future. Sometimes I worry that this will be my life for a lot longer than I would have ever anticipated and so everything will get slowed down even more. But mostly I think about how I want things to change and how I don't want this to be my life for a really long time. I want to get better and I want to be normal and happy and do everything I want to. Whether it be travel around the world, or just get the job I've always wanted. I want to be able to do anything I want to, and I know that if I work really hard then I can.
I'm definitely doing A levels next year and I'm desperate to eventually go to university. Having very few GCSEs puts me at a major disadvantage. Especially as what I want to do at university is an extremely competitive field (Veterinary Science). I know some people think I'm not capable but I don't care. I believe I can do it, and I feel that just by believing in yourself means you're already part way there. I know that the next three years are going to be tough. I know I have to work my little socks off but it's what I want more than anything in the world. No one can predict their future and things my change; but as of now it's my life aim. I'm going to do it. I'm not going to let anyone or anything stop me from achieving what I really really want.
Lottie x
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