Something To Be Proud Of

Revising - something everyone has to do at some point in their life, but no one enjoys. The past few weeks I have spent whole days at home revising for a biology retake. Add this to not leaving the house and only seeing the same four people and you have the perfect recipe for extreme boredom. Having saying this though, I don't actually want to leave the house. Its safe and nice and leaving the comfort of home leads to panic and I don't like panic.

Anxiety is by far the hardest thing I'm coping with at the moment, I've had a few panic attacks and none of them have been what I would call pleasant. It's horrible - I HATE it.
Like I said, home is safe. People can come and see me at home and I'm absolutely fine. But going to see them at their houses is difficult, and it's this that I'm struggling to make understandable for other people. I don't even really understand it myself.....   It's a toughen!

Anyway back onto the note of revision! The exam I had to sit was last thursday morning and although I was fully prepared for the exam it sort of skipped my mind that I actually had to get to school to be able to do it. However I managed to get up and dressed without really worrying about it. But then came the task of actually getting in the car and going. My mum practically had to drag me out the house but I managed and we got there.
Actually getting out the car and getting to the exam room was really hard though. My mum kept saying 'Just walk to the room, even if you don't go in at least you tried and thats still something to be proud of.' After a lot of persuasion I got there and I did manage to go in and do it and it was fine. A couple of friends where doing it too and it was such a relief to have people who knew what was going on.

 I can't thank my friends/family enough for everything they have done to help me. I can't explain how just a short text can really make me feel so much happier. And for the first time in a long time, I managed to do something I was really proud of.


soppy soppy soppy I know I know, sorry!